Sunday, March 13, 2016

Twice A Cancer Mom

By Shannon Bollenbach, March 12, 2016 -- As tomorrow approaches this momma can't help but be overcome with mixed emotions, tomorrow Jase will finish up his chemotherapy. 

When I told Jase "no more chemo baby," he says " Yay momma no more boo boo, no more pokes, no more bandaids." Hearing the excitement in your 2 year olds voice is worth a million dollars. 

This has been our lives the past 14 months with Jase, the past 7 years between both boys. 

Jase has grown to love the nurses, doctors, and staff at both the hospital and JEC clinic [Jimmy Everest Center at OU Children's Hospital]. Instead of talking about his friends at school or neighbor kids he talks about Dr. Sims, Dr. McNall, Will, Heather Kelly, Alma, and Becky just to name a few. 

The best part of this whole journey has to be how much Jase has grown and became this intelligent little person. There isn't a soul who doesn't know him, if so he will gladly introduce himself and tell you all about it. He has a contagious smile that will light up the room. 

He is one of the brightest two year olds I know, he can say his entire alaphebet, count to ten, and tell you exactly what he wants. 

The once shy little boy is now are inquestive social butterfly. We may be finished with chemo but Jase still has weekly appointments, monthly scans, and lab work on a regular basis this will never end. Life as Jase knows it is about to change.  

As for momma, I've  never been so damn terrified in my life, just the thought makes me sick to my stomach. After Kaden's cancer returning so aggressively there is a high chance Jases will also, it may be 6 days after treatment or 60 years we will never know, all we can do is watch for the signs and monitor him closely.  

I know stressing isn't the answer, I know I'm supposed to leave it to God but in reality I'm a cancer mom, of 2, that knows the reality of this horrible disease all too well. 

What's next, we are going to live life this summer like never before many lake trips, vacation, and family time. 

Jase has requested a party with balloons and presents he can unwrap so a party Jase will get. We will be celebrating the end of chemo, and a little thank you to all the nurses and staff that have cares for Jase along the way.

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